I know I say this often, but I TRULY am so sorry for not posting anything up lately. I’ve just been swamped with work, assignments, filming and performing. However, that’s all about to change! I am happy to announce that I have officially finished my second semester of my first year in college! Which means….. I’M ON MY HOLIDAYS!!! Yay! *Cue fireworks and all that jazz* Alright, I don’t want to bore you with what’s happened lately, (cause that’s how I usually start off a post) so instead of looking back on what’s happened, I’m going to look forward on the new and exciting things that are going to happen VERY soon! :D
Now some of you know that I was/am a vlogger. Then I switched to blogging, and vlogging was like a dying art to me. Which is upsetting news even for myself, because I live and breathe for all things social media sharing! Haha. That being said, I am excited to share with you my next project. Well actually, it’s not really a new project, it’s more of the rebirthing of an old project. Let me explain; I have a Youtube channel - ooh, big shocker there! And I’ve uploaded a couple videos earlier in the year, but college has sucked out every juice of life out of me, so I wasn’t really committed to it as much as I wish I was. But the year is coming to an end now, and I’m on my holidays, so there’s really no reason for me to not vlog everyday! Absolutely nothing! Haha.
So when I was in my last few week of classes, I realized that I reeeeaaaalllllyyyy need to work on my video editing skills. And what better way to work on editing skills than to edit my own vlogging videos, am I right? Right! So I’m still very much early in my holidays, and despite my terrible cold, there’s nothing stopping me from doing this. I’m EXTREMELY excited to get back on the vlogging train, as I miss it very much. You should get excited too, because this time… I think this time I know where I’m going and doing. There’s gonna be loads of fun things I’m going to try out while vlogging. I’m even going to try to do one of those darned YouTube challenges! There are definitely going to be guest appearances, because what better to spread joy, then with the company of loved ones!
On a side note, I have an audition this month. For what, I won’t say for now. But if it works out, I’ll let you in on the secret. ;) Here is where you can find an old video my friend and I made in the first semester: SareenaSays. I deleted the older ones, because I just realized how terribly executed all of them were! Hahah.
Till then, lovelies.
Hi everyone. Brace yourselves this is going to be a DOOZY.
Usually, I would write about the recent occurrences that have happened in my life. Things such as events, shootings, presentations, and day-outs. Things of that nature. But today, I’m going to write about some of the more mental occurrences that have happened recently. Before I start, I just want to clarify for the thousandth time that I am a PERFORMING ARTS STUDENT. That being said, I’m taking multiple subjects to complete my diploma in performing arts. Subjects that focus on film, theatre and performing arts. This diploma touches on the theory and practical part of every subject that was mentioned. The reason I’m reinstating this is because I realized that in my previous posts I’ve been calling myself a film student. Which, I am! But I don’t want to confuse all of you to think that I’m tied down by one type of art. Which brings us to the main topic of today’s post:
Since I’m a performing arts student, I think it’s safe to assume that I love to perform. But my passion to perform mainly comes from singing and making music! Music means a lot to me, as it does to many people. Music to me is like air supply. I’ve been singing and dancing ever since I was a little girl (I know, I know. Super cliché, but it’s the honest truth!). The thing that most people don’t know is, how much I love music, and how much it has made me into the person I am today. I tend to always speak about film, but film is my mistress and music will always be my first love. But before recently…. I’ve been ashamed of loving music the way I love music.
I know it sounds like a silly thing to be ashamed of, but it was like a legitimate fear for me. To come out and proudly say that I love music is as close to a gay person coming out to the world and announcing their homosexuality. Yes, it’s that radical. Because when I say I love music, I mean that I feel the need to perform it. It’s not enough to just listen to it; I have to be a part of it. Do you know what I mean? It’s just one of those things. And when I was younger, I always knew my passion towards music, but it was terrifying for me to ever come out and say it because where I come from, if you want to perform, you better be good at it. So I was always so afraid that I wasn’t good enough. And if I wasn’t good enough, how was I to tell my family? Friends? So I honed my skills, practiced behind close doors, and slowly started to open up bit by bit. I guess the fear came from people telling me that I wasn’t good enough, and that I shouldn’t love it as much. But that’s just it. No matter how many times you tell me I shouldn’t think too much of it, I’ll just keep thinking about it. I’ve always been a perfectionist, and that will never die. But now I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter what people say. If you love it, then for the love of god, just do it! You know what I mean? And if you’re bad, then get better!
So now that I finally am okay with saying this out as a fact, I think it’s time for me to inject some music into this blog. Now I know, I’ve said that I’ll be doing more book and film reviews. (Which I’m in the process of doing, btw. I’m currently reading ‘The Hangman’s daughter’) I do these reviews to enhance my critical thinking skills. So I though that since I’m already documenting most of my practices, why don’t I documents my journey with music too? And so, I will. Make sure to look out for videos or songs in the future. :)
Here’s a little something to inspire you to do whatever things you were afraid or ashamed of loving:
Read a book.
Read a book.
Read a book.
Read a book.
Read a book.
My heart hurts.
Read a book.
I don't understand life.
Read a book.
Read a book.
I do not think I’m easy to define. I have a wandering mind. And I’m not anything that you think I am.
Syd Barrett (via rauchwolken)
Why can’t people just sit and read books and be nice to each other?
David Baldacci, The Camel Club (via littledallilasbookshelf)
- push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
One of my absolute favorites.